Survival Float

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released June 30, 2015

head so light, old haunts, huh yeah it aint always easy by Jesse Hal

the emerald schmoe, with an ex, shove, the spirit of rebellion, science class by Jesse Hal and Seth Carlshamn

claw and bite, once again by Jesse Hal, Seth Carlshamn, and Brian Hartnett

Performance:
Jesse Hal - vocals, piano, synth, guitar, bass, and additional percussion
Seth Carlshamn - drums and percussion
Brian Hartnett - horns

Produced by Jesse Hal

Recorded by Jesse Hal, Shawn Wilson of Carterco Recording

Mixed by Jesse Hal

Mastered by Carl Saff of Saff Mastering

Photos:
Boldt Collective

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Survival Float Chicago, Illinois

Survival Float is a pop/rock act based in Chicago, Illinois. The project is fronted and produced by vocalist and songwriter, Jesse Hal.

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Track Name: head so light
keep beating on your drums
touch somebody's ear
just a lick of wine
then you squeeze in tight
you don't force a note
your voice so thin and easy
you don't even try to come off so wise

i put a foot down
but i can't raise a fist to fight
so maybe i'll shut up just to try something new
with all my blood in my shoes
a head so light
dead on the ground

keep beating on your drums
beat 'em 'til you bleed
until it makes you cry
you broke them
you're stompin' down so hard
your shins will rip to splinters if you even start movin'
i got a head so light
i got a gut so heavy like a sock of dimes
if i could stand i would reach you
you give it four hard years
you were never once hot shit and you're still not, my son
just leave it

i put a foot down
but i can't raise a fist to fight
so maybe i'll shut up
just to try something' new
with all my blood in my shoes
there am I, honey
dead on the ground
Track Name: the emerald schmoe
oil and wine won't save after all
curse this skin won't spit a spirit out
no hell no heaven
no way found through blood, love, or gifts no invitation

i see from the edge what was mine all along
it's a shame it's all so very temporary

spoiled this whole time with the flood and the fall
dust to skin, what a stretch i recall
i held the wager, left it all
curse this shit's no education
i see from the edge what was mine all along
it's a shame it's all so very temporary
the flood of emotion, churning of guts
oh, it all was so very unnecessary

sure like the autumn
dead before the summer
shame no breath brings life from dust again...
Track Name: with an ex
i'm no more blind, no more shallow
still heavily inclined to cling to his hand
he stares me through to tomorrow
i'm gonna suck like a fool/ and he's gonna let me starve

this sin's mine
i'm so full of love
it's heavy in my mind
and i've a right to give up

through the hall to my bedroom
the sheet's on the floor, soft is the lamp
and i'm far removed for the meanwhile
my body moves for you/ and that's the hardest part

this sin's mine
i'm so full of love
it's heavy in my mind
and i've a right to give up
Track Name: claw and bite
hear me
face me now
what's suckin' up your life son
fear
indifference
aint ya nothing to be proud of

hear me
faith's not kind
it can be a sick and cruel device son
it turns us little men into beggars into children

claw and bite and at any cost
tear your mind from the heart they spun
our younger years they have already won
look down tonight deep's the winner's blood

there's no ghosts at night creeping' in our houses
and more...there's no hell
these are sick and cruel devices
born of ignorance
and passed from children to our children

claw and bite and at any cost
tear your mind from the heart they spun
our wonder years they have sadly enough shut down
look down tonight deep's the winner's blood
Track Name: old haunts
fear wasn't in me
with your tan arm across my neck
not even when the wind beat
and tore the walls out from the place you made

they dropped you in the blue and
you sank slow
but so hard you hit the land
they left you cold and wounded
still you curl your hand in his course hand

but i had to move
these old haunts came crashin' down
that put a hole in me
i never saw it com in'

i sometimes caught you sleeping'
on the floor...dreamless i think
no rollin' eyes, no blinkin'
no twitches or moans
still enough for dead

at best it wasn't easy
at your low you thought you couldn't stand
i took off when you were wounded
still you curl your hand in his course hand

but i had to move
these old haunts came crashin' down
that put a hole in me
i never saw it com in'
Track Name: once again
we sprang from the back yard
our fingers in the cold dirt
spitting in the air and turning it into mud
we live outdoors
never knowing a city
i built these walls
so we can fill the earth

and i'll keep us warm tonight
and i'll watch the door once again

i've fallen to the floor
have i ever been a good man
i never knew before i was so rotten in the gut
i've given up my clothes
and we're nothing short of hungry
i've given up on walls
so we can leave the earth

and i'll keep us warm tonight
and i'll watch the door once again
Track Name: shove
remember how first we met
turned a corner,turned an accident
can't read anymore
and i can't write or rest
we're both so bold and both so credulous

i fell into your hands
i know it seems so simple
you balance with a shove
i like how it looks so easy

remember when we left for hell
knelt at our own altars
and we tipped our mugs to our lord satan's health
and afternoons in love and filth
were we ever saved
no, never
but i think something else

i fell into your hands
i know it seems so simple
you balance with a shove
i like how it looks so easy
turns out so now we lost our friends
leakin' slowly out/ we never really impressed them

i know it seems so simple
you balance with a shove
i like how it looks so easy

there's no balance in my world
'til i give up to you so headstrong

remember how first we met
both so bold and both so credulous
Track Name: the spirit of rebellion
when first engaged we were so weak
and believe me, believing most anything
in came the form of children's witness
believe me we're believing most anything

i know exactly when we turned
found you writhing in the dirt
and then it all was so absurd to us
we resolved to end the faith
weak again, uneducated
the world's anew out there in front of us

when first engaged we were so weak
and believe me, believing most anything
did heaven give a son to witness
to free me/ or send me burn in'

we never chose to fill our heads
with thoughts of hell or blessin's waiting'
we hardly knew the next day comin' up
won't spend away the days abed
half asleep, medicated
some sicko, loser, dick, bitch…son of a…

i now know why we were desperate
and all alone
we give up on the word
it turns out fake
it's no matter
it's a fool's game

i know exactly when we turned
found you writhing in the dirt
and then it all was so absurd to us
won't spend away the days abed
half asleep and medicated
sicko, fool, loser, dick, bitch…son of a…

i now know why we're desperate and all alone
Track Name: huh yeah it aint always easy
stay here anytime you want
my home's under the moon
i'll sleep light
i had a name
before you ran into the woods
i'm one of many things forgotten
for so long

son, don't make me a fool

i didn't die from a heart attack or stroke
i found a nail, i found a dog's tooth
and i put myself away
under sand and moss and snow
i'm one of many things forgotten
for so long
son, don't make me a fool

you never seen me cry, huh?
huh yeah it aint always easy
to squeeze emotion in, sweetie
once i leaned on a bigger man
'til i's sixteen or so
i saw him weak and downtrodden
and so worn

don't make me a fool
son, don't make me a fool
Track Name: science class
maybe burst did we to life
in waves of violence and hot salty air
where the ocean's are lined
with her edges sayin' fill me up
then white the wake turns clear

or maybe once there was a garden
in the country where the dust came alive, man
and bones turn to wives
better learn ya this version or hell
it won't follow that far

maybe burst did we to life
with wings or beaks sometimes scales or claws or hair
where the oceans are slime
and chance did you grow a lung
and toes to pull you clear

give up such lies
they border obscenity
no surprise their ideas queer
for the lost they do wind
these illusions to keep their sin alive
despite their fear

carnivore dinosaurs chew their cabbage
their gums so delicate
one man named all of the spiders
give up did the wife to the snake
oh, she ruined it all

carnivore dinosaurs chew their cabbage
their gums so delicate/ one man named every spider
give up did the wife to the snake
oh, she ruined it all